Carpe pericula! Face errores!

All the cool kids were doing it

Fri, 18 Dec 2009 20:35:44 GMT

Dear Santa...

Dear Santa,

This year I've been busy!

Last Tuesday I gave iceburgundy a kidney (1000 points). Last Thursday I pulled over and changed destructively's flat tire (15 points). In March I put gum in atotalsap's hair (-12 points). Last Friday I didn't flush (-1 points). Last Wednesday I pulled anthraxpretzels's hair (-5 points).

Overall, I've been nice (997 points). For Christmas I deserve a Pony Slaystation 3!

Sincerely,
auriatetsukai

YOU'RE WELCOME, ICY.

Bitch bitch bitch bitch bitch bitch bitch

Thu, 17 Dec 2009 08:51:40 GMT

I'm bored.

And it's not even a simple "I need something stupid to do" boredom that can be cured with video games. It's a petty, ridiculous, selfish "I need human contact because the only person I see regularly is Beth and she just doesn't cut it anymore (sorry Beth)" boredom. God, no wonder I want Tally/Starscream to happen so bad. It would give me something to do.

If I don't get that job, I might just bludgeon myself to death with this potato masher I don't even know. Things were better back in November when I was practically shitting Christmas spirit. And now that it's a week til the damn holiday, I can't bother to care. What the hell is wrong with me.

I'm so bored that I'm listening to "Lights Out" on repeat. And I don't even like Mindless Self Indulgence.

I'm so bored that I'm going back and spewing pretty colors all over this post. Whatever.

idfk, this looked interesting.

Wed, 16 Dec 2009 06:47:10 GMT

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...I need more friends. Or post something interesting.

KASARIIIIIIIIIIIN

Sun, 13 Dec 2009 07:03:22 GMT

eccentricbirdie and I met up with tree_of_silence today. Was very nervous. It was awesome but severely lacking in pictures. And it started out something like this.

ring....ring.....ring.... "....hello?"
"Hey. Is this Kas?"
"...........Auria?"
"Wake up, Kas."
"Oh crap, man...I sent you a text last night. I um...wanted to know if you wanted to just meet up in Seattle, or if you were gonna come here. I mean, whichever's easier for you..."
"Kas? Kas."
"Huh?"
"I'm already here. I've been here for fifteen minutes."
".........bwuh?"

So then we met up in the lobby and there were hugs and leather jacket comparisons, and then we went on our merry way into downtown Seattle.

Stop one was a toy store. We saw it and turned into the nearest parking garage so we could go check it out. The first thing Kas did when she got in there was pick up a toy monkey that was lying on the floor. It started wriggling in her hand and she freaked out. Turns out the toy's purpose is to roll on the floor emitting a hideous giggle.

So then we went into the puzzle section and that is this picture. Kas loves puzzles.

They had that series of fantasy guidebooks. Wizardology, Dragonology, Piratology, whatever. Kas picked up Oceanology. "I should totally get this for Ryuu and tell her 'lol, Cyrus'."

UPSTAIRS WERE PUPPETS AND WE FOUND A LAMBCHOP PUPPET AND IT WAS AWESOME.

So then after that we left the toy store and started working our way up James St. Then we came across an entrance to the underground metro system. It's only partially underground, and it's buses, not a subway, but still. Kas was fascinated by it I don't even know.

AND THEN we worked our way over from James until we got to Westlake Center, where there is a mall. And Kas was like, "I have some Christmas shopping to do so we should go in here" so we did. And there was a living statue dude in there who was a nutcracker. Beth was terrified of him, but she sucked it up so she could take a picture of us.

After we got some good shopping done, we went across the street to the carousel. King 5 News has it set up to raise money for foster kids, so we all donated two bucks and got on. There's Beth...

...and there's Kas.

While it was going, I obviously couldn't take pictures, so here's a video.

Overall review of Kas: my god, she's fun. I don't even know what else to say, she was just so out there and spontaneous and awesome. A++, would hang with again.

Princess and the Frog

Sat, 12 Dec 2009 16:59:12 GMT

"You gotta diiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiig a little deeper!"

Loved it. Loved it loved it loved it.

Everyone go see it now.

NOW.

/leaves life...again

Wed, 09 Dec 2009 21:35:31 GMT

"I thought it was a theme park or something."
"I thought it was a theme park or something."
"I thought it was a theme park or something."
"I thought it was a theme park or something."

Christmastiems

Sun, 06 Dec 2009 01:10:49 GMT

My life is awesome.

1. I am done with my Christmas cards and they are awesome. (Incidentally, I have leftovers. If you want one, just ping me.)
2. I'M GETTING A FUCKING MARCO OWEN AT THE WAKE SKGFJSHGAS ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ FOREVER
3. This reason is not here, but its number is significant.
4. This thread.

The only thing that could make this better is FUCKING SNOW but the precipitation is not agreeing with the temperature. WHY, I ask you. I live in northwest Washington. WHERE IS MY DAMN SNOW.

Fri, 04 Dec 2009 21:24:02 GMT

Holy christ what is this.

oh my god here we go

Thu, 03 Dec 2009 20:33:47 GMT

It's been four months since I went to Greece. I had decided to just stop doing these posts because I'm too fucking lazy. But dammit, I am going to finish what I fucking started so INSERT BATTLE CRY HERE WE'RE STARTING UP AGAIN.

It was a three-hour trip to Delphi, so we had to get up at the fucking asscrack of dawn and blehhh I hate early mornings. But anyway, we stopped off at a gas station for snacks and...you know, gas.

I don't know, okay? It was delicious, but I wouldn't exactly call it an orgy.

The surrounding area where we stopped off.

It was a Shell station. No, really. Wish you could see the prices. :/

It doesn't even look like a convenience store. It's got fricken chairs out front and shit.

So this village out here...I don't remember what it was called, but it was so...well, cute. Charming? But I love the idea of houses on cliffs. (Just wait til we get to Santorini.)

If two cars meet in one of these narrow-ass alleys, the smaller has to back the fuck up. We were in a giant purple tour bus, so we always won. Hell yeah.

Finally made it to the base of the hill.

We had a lot of climbing to do. And it was like ninety degrees.

These little recesses in the walls were shops where you could buy offerings on your way up.

Every nearby city had buildings like this, where their donations were kept. The larger and more often the donation (ie, the more money you funded into Delphi), the bigger your treasury building was. This is the Athenian treasury. It's the only one still standing, and that's because so much money went into its upkeep.

This is the actual temple of Delphi, the one dedicated to Apollo and which housed the oracle. It's actually way bigger, but these columns are all that's left standing. And we're not even halfway up there.

Delphi, like every other cultural center, had an amphitheater. This one's actually on the small side.

This is the full floor plan of the temple. See, it's actually freaking huge.

The entrance to the temple. You have no idea how long it took me to get this damn picture and the one before it; there were always people's heads cropping up in the corners. Would've been fine if they were people I knew.

Backside of the Athenian treasury.

For some reason, we weren't allowed down here, so I had to take a picture from above. I have no idea what it is.

Stray kitties! Greece has lots of strays, but they're all fed.

After we hiked down from the temple, we went to the museum. I don't remember what this thing is, but I remember lots of other shit.

Like this. This is a sphinx, donated by the Athenians (of course). It stood on a pillar that towered over the temple itself, and basically meant that Delphi and Athens were biffles. Obviously, the front legs are fake; repaired with plaster and some other stuff.

Stuff like this was either on the temple, or from the Athenian treasury. This depicts a specific battle, but I don't remember which one.

I do remember what these depict. This one is Europa being carried off by Zeus, who has transformed himself into a bull. This myth eventually leads to the founding of Thebes, for those who are lacking in Greek mythology.

This one's from the Calydonian boar hunt. That little blobby shape under the boar used to be a hunting dog. This myth basically just details how badass Atalanta is.

These are itty-bitty carvings from the Herakles myth. Every time Herakles brought back the fruits of his labors, his douchey cousin Eurystheus would hide in a pot, especially if that labor's fruit was alive, like Cerberus.

The dancers. Okay. Obviously, the next picture is going to explain it, but basically, this was a huge column donated (of course) by the Athenians, and it looked hella cool when put together. They only have two sections now: the dancers and one piece of the column.

This is that one piece of the column.

What it looked like (probably) when put together.

This doesn't look like much, but it's actually extremely important: it's what's known as "the navel stone". Myth first: when Zeus was making sense of the world, he had two eagles fly from each end of the earth. Where they met, they were to drop a stone, and that place would be the center of the world. So the eagles flew, and they dropped the stone, and that's how Delphi was begun.

This stone symbolizes Delphi's place as the cultural center of ancient Greece. Thousands of copies were made and sold, or just strewn around the area. It was like bragging.

I was so happy for this plaque you don't even know, because it was in Latin. By the end of this trip, I could read about...oh, forty percent of the Greek alphabet, but I had no idea what any of the damn words meant. So I about died inside when I saw this and realized I could totally fucking read and understand it.

They offered a translation anyway, BUT STILL.

An artist's rendering of Delphi at its peak. At the top left is the amphitheater from about forty pictures back, and right below it is the temple.

After the museum, we stopped off to have lunch in this very nice little restaurant. And I like bamboo.

OH BUT WE'RE NOT FUCKING DONE YET. Despite being completely exhausted and smelling like dust and old people, I decided to go with a small group of people to the highest point in Athens that I had taken a picture of the previous day. It sounded fun at first. We took the metro to...shit, I don't remember where, but anyway. That was fine. What was not fine was walking up 2537648798 flights of stairs just to make it to the bottom of the hill, where we could take a very short tram ride to the top.

BUT WE MADE IT SO HERE'S THE TOP. Also my camera sucks ass at night photography, as you can see.

They had a church at the top (along with a restaurant). I thought the church was absolutely lovely except for that damn cross. Did it have to be lit up? It would look much nicer being the same muted stone as the rest of the church, don't you think?

There was also a bell up here that I bet would have sounded awesome.

Two seconds later, I looked out to the acropolis. All the major temples, like the Parthenon and the temple of Hephaestus that I'd visited the previous day, are lit up by floodlights at night. The acropolis looked absolutely beautiful and I readied myself to take a picture--

--and my fucking camera died. Right there. Right fucking there.

Next up: My name's Angus. I sell cruuuuuuuuuise tickets.

Oh my god I knew I shouldn't have done that

Wed, 02 Dec 2009 21:33:50 GMT

Not when it comes up with stuff like this.

oh shit

Tue, 01 Dec 2009 21:17:44 GMT

I've been hanging on to the Midnighters series because I need them for Dess's app.

Today, I found out they've all been charged (along with Sandman: Vol. 3). Total is $107.

Jean, that app might have to wait.

It came up in chat, okay?

Mon, 30 Nov 2009 19:15:38 GMT

Christmas Songs I Utterly Adore
"The Little Drummer Boy" (Simeone Chorale Version) Look, it's the one from the FHE movie, okay?

Christmas Songs I Absolutely Hate
Silver Bells
White Christmas
Let It Snow
Winter Wonderland
Any and all parodies

I'm not thinking straight so I'll need to update this later, lol.

Some thoughts

Mon, 30 Nov 2009 06:51:54 GMT

What's the point of apologizing when the damage is already done? It is irreversible. "Sorry" doesn't repair shit.

I should just completely and utterly stop listening to people. Particularly Colin. This is my path and my choice.

Everything is mine. My voice, my face, my thoughts, my opinions, my dreams, my life, my world. No one can change that and no one can tell me it's wrong, so I should stop thinking that they have any control over any part of me.

Although...it's easier to say something than to truly believe it.

This will be an uphill climb.

...oh.

Sun, 22 Nov 2009 09:08:33 GMT

They Changed It, Now It Sucks is a pretty good summary.

All right. I think first I must explain the love I have for the Trans-Siberian Orchestra.

I was raised on these guys. I was born in 1991; their first album came out in 1996. I knew all the words to all their songs before just about anything else. The first time my parents let me come to their concert, I about peed myself in sheer joy. I have gone to every single concert since then except for last year's. For me, the Trans-Siberian Orchestra is Christmas.

So it hurts twice as bad for this reason when they put on a mediocre show.

For the last five years or so, they have been hinting at a new album by playing a couple songs from it and saying "Should these go on the new album?" Well, that album was released in October. So of course, this concert was all about pimping it. There are two problems with this:

1. Night Castle is a non-Christmas album in a very Christmas concert.

2. Night Castle sucks. For an album that's been hyped forever, and which has a badass rendition of O Fortuna on it, Night Castle is just not good. I felt very let down.

But, after getting the usual Christmas stuff out of the way, TSO decided to scrap all its normal, awesometastic stuff for this stupid pimping.

Also, let's get one thing out of the way. Nutrocker, I'm happy for you, and Imma let you finish, but A Mad Russian's Christmas was the best Trans-Siberian Orchestra cover of Nutcracker music of all time. Of all time. So fuck off, because my god do I hate Nutrocker. Night Castle, of course, though it is merely a bonus track.

Now then. That aforementioned O Fortuna badassery? Yeah, they played that one every year. "Should we put this on the next album?" Hell yes you should! So now that that album's out, they should play the shit out of O Fortuna, right?

No. No, they did not play O Fortuna.

Okay, so...hey, you know that only other non-Christmas album, Beethoven's Last Night? That's a very good, very unappreciated album. It always makes me think of Ozymandias. And it also happens to be the album on which my absolute favorite non-Christmas song lurks: Beethovan. It's always treated as the light show trip-out song, a chance for the tech guys to really show themselves off.

No, they didn't play that either.

Oh, but surely they'll play Wish Liszt! That's the token piano duel; they love showing off their pianists' talent. That shit's awesome live.

Nope. Try again.

Christmas Nights in Blue, which is so unappreciated that I can't even find it anywhere on the goddamn internets, was not played either. That song is always a huge crowd-pleaser; they use it to segue into classic rock songs (look, don't ask me how this works, but it works awesome). It's also my favorite Christmas song of theirs.

But you know, up until now, this has just been petty griping. "Baww they didn't play this and this and this", whatever. But I did have a problem with a certain something in a certain song.

So unless you've been living under a rock for the last ten years, you've probably heard Sarajevo on the radio at some point. Now, the passage that accompanies this song in the album (for all the albums, and the concert itself, follow a storyline) is very anti-war. The idea is that this song is being played by a lone cello on a battlefield in Sarajevo. Cool idea.

But for some utterly ridiculous reason, TSO decided to up the anvils tenfold. The shiny new addition to the lightshow was a set of nifty LED screens that were basically TVs on steroids. So during the first minute of Sarajevo (the buildup with the bass and the awesome and all that), they showed, on these TVs...the news.

Okay, so it was more than that. Obama was in there, and Clinton and Bush, and some shots of the House and the Senate, and some generic battlefields (probably Iraq) and you know what? This sounds cool to you. I bet it does; I bet this sounds like a good idea. But when you've been going to the same damn concert for nearly ten years and you've never had to deal with so blatant a message? That's jarring. It's almost scary. All I know is when I saw it, the smile slid right off my face and I could only gape in surprise until the end of the song. And even sometime after that.

Part of my psychological makeup is that I love routine and tradition. Why am I such a Christmas nutjob? Because it's tradition. Every Christmas Eve is spent at my maternal grandparents', and every Christmas Day is with my paternal grandmother. We eat the same food, we exchange gifts, we talk and laugh and then we go home and sleep with smiles on our faces. This is my life. This is what I live for, every year. And ever since my first Trans-Siberian Orchestra concert, my Christmas season has been kickstarted by them. So when they get me all happy and excited and then rip it right out from under me? I get upset. I am quite upset right now.

...for no good reason, I guess. All psychological reasoning aside, I'm still a kid bitching about a concert.

If there was one thing that had me grinning, it was the male violinist. TSO always picks up the local orchestra to be their strings section, and then one or two lead violinists who play this gnarly electric violins with crazy tricked-out bows. But this kid. Oh my god, this kid. He was having the time of his life on stage; he was an Asian Joe Biden. He was just so damn happy to be playing with the Trans-Siberian Orchestra. There was one point where, when running from one side of the stage to the other, he tripped and fell. Did it faze him? HELL NAW. He sat up with that doofy grin and kept playing like he totally meant to do it. I wanted to hug him, I loved him so much.

Sun, 22 Nov 2009 00:40:34 GMT

Well, we'll see how this year goes.

FDAKFDH

Sat, 21 Nov 2009 02:27:49 GMT

AH MY GAAAAAAWD I GOT A MIKE MYERS TO JOIN THE WAKE.

I AM JUST

SO EXCITED

FOREVER.

I was getting scared that our ad was gonna get jack shit. D:

hurk

Tue, 17 Nov 2009 19:25:15 GMT

I was really excited about working on my cards because I'm getting my glue gun today, but nothing sucks the Christmas spirit out of you faster than snotting all over the place and having your uterus projectile-vomit.

Not that anyone really needed to know this. Oh well.

This year's pumpkin

Tue, 17 Nov 2009 06:33:00 GMT

Happy

Mon, 16 Nov 2009 03:32:50 GMT

Today I danced like no one was watching.

It was so ridiculously fun.

I think I'm gonna go do it again.

Some useful notes on Auria

Sun, 15 Nov 2009 09:24:39 GMT

I am clinically depressed. I have been on thirty milligrams of Prozac for about eight months (twenty for the year before), but I don't always take it. Sometimes I forget. When I forget, I get depressed. Then I get too depressed to start up again. Tomorrow I am either going to up my dosage, or change to Paxil.

I have abysmally low self-esteem. While I am proud of a few accomplishments, and satisfied with some of the character traits that life and genetics have dealt me, I hate my own body and face and can't get away from the reputation I have crafted around myself.

I talk to myself. That's all under a tag called "introspective". I only have two aspects to my psyche: the rational optimism and the misanthropic pessimism. Mes has been very inactive lately, except for a few days ago. That upset me a lot, that she showed up again.

In sixth grade, I had a teacher who refused to accept my reasons for missing or late assignments. She constantly cited the difference between "reason" and "excuse", and somehow my reasons were actually excuses. Never in that entire grade did I learn what she thought was the difference between the two. Now everything I think is an excuse. Like this post for my behavior in the RP!S bullshit.

It's not. I don't know what it is, but I really hope it's not an excuse. (I wouldn't know the difference.)

shit

Sun, 15 Nov 2009 03:29:22 GMT

The fuck is wrong with me.

Bonus points for the cut text

Fri, 13 Nov 2009 22:56:41 GMT

Step 1: Put your MP3 player or whatever music player you have on random.
Step 2: Post a line/stanza from the first 20 songs that play, no matter how embarrassing the song.
Step 3: Post and let everyone you know guess what song and artist the lines come from.
Step 4: Bold the songs when someone guesses correctly

It took me fifty songs before I actually had twenty with lyrics. lol video game soundtracks

1. And the carcass of the beast / left over from the feast / may still be found haunting the kitchen

2. Join the bums and thieves and strumpets / Streaming in from Chartres to Calais / Scurvy knaves are extra scurvy / On the sixth of "Januervy"
"Topsy Turvy" -- various artists (from The Hunchback of Notre Dame)

3. Shine, bright morning light / now in the air the spring is coming

4. Clearly I remember / From the windows they were watching / While we froze down below

5. I'm not the only one who is good at pretending / I am the one who's tired of dependence / I am the one who can't bear anymore / I'm not the one who can live all alone

6. Anything goes, everything fits / they love me at the Chelsea, they adore me at the Ritz!
"Why Should I Worry?" -- Billy Joel (from Oliver and Company)

7. Dareka ga Kossori / Komichi ni Ko no mi Uzumete / Chiisana me Haetara

8. Don't blame us if we ever doubt you / You know we couldn't live without you

9. `O Kalakaua he inoa / `O ka pua mae`ole i ka la

10. Souls in the wind must / learn how to bend / seek out a star / hold on til the end

11. moriagari morisagari / koi shitari mada naisho ni shitoite rinri / amaenbou youjinbou / tsuushinbo choushi koite gyukusai (and for the record, I am so very sorry)

12. Toru ka, yuzuru kano / Chinmoku no semegi ai / Dochira demo ii sa / Iki no koru tame ni

13. All change / don't you know that when you / Play at this level there's no ordinary venue / It's Iceland / or the Philippines / or Hastings / or...or this place!

14. I need your grace / to remind me / to find my own
"Chasing Cars" -- Snow Patrol

15. I feel them getting closer / Their howls are sending chills down my spine / And time is running out now / They're coming down the hills from behind
"The Howling" -- Within Temptation

16. As she drifts / through our lives / tossing coins into the air / watch them twist / watch them fall / turning hope into despair

17. You will know, my dear / you don't have to fear / a new beginning / always starts at the end

18. Att vår värld behöver ha / Mera kärlek varje dag / Det vet både jag och du / Låt oss börja här och nu

19. For my meeting with death / though it has been delayed / I have run my hands over / the end of his blade

20. She's a runner, rebel and a stunner / On her merry way sayin' "baby whatcha gonna" / Lookin' down the barrel of a hot metal .45 / Just another way to survive

Know thyself

Wed, 11 Nov 2009 05:48:03 GMT

[21:23] auriatetsukai: I wish I could help people.
[21:23] auriatetsukai: in some way other than just being the bleeder.
[21:24] auriatetsukai: -wears Squee as a hat-
[21:25] Squee: HI~
[21:25] Squee: /is a hat
[21:25] auriatetsukai: Squeehat, make me happy.
[21:25] Squee: I LOVE YOU!
[21:25] auriatetsukai: ...that worked. xD

[21:26] Rev: S-smaug...
[21:26] Rev: /baws
[21:26] Sara: *KEEP AWAY*
[21:27] auriatetsukai: -PULLS HARDER-
[21:27] Natalie: -clones Squeehat-
[21:27] Squee: BE HAPPY ALL OF YOU
[21:27] Squee: http://cdn-www.dailypuppy.com/media/dogs/anonymous/india_pom11.jpg_w450.jpg
[21:27] Rev: hkjgfkjgd
[21:27] auriatetsukai: Oh no...
[21:27] Rev: FFFFFFFFFFFF
[21:27] Rev: IT
[21:27] Rev: IT KILLS ME
[21:27] auriatetsukai: Squee, I'm
[21:27] auriatetsukai: not gonna be happy.
[21:27] Natalie: HIS EARS DISSAPPEAR THAT IS TOO CUTE.
[21:27] Rev: WITH THOSE DEEP, SOUL-GAZING EYES.
[21:27] Syd: *__________________*
[21:27] Allison: That thing is weird.
[21:27] Sara: *WEARS SQUEEHAT*
[21:27] Squee: ;A; Why noooot?
[21:27] Rev: *^*
[21:28] Rox: ...awwwww
[21:28] auriatetsukai: I don't like it when Jen...does stuff like this.
[21:28] auriatetsukai: I get worried.
[21:28] Squee: You no like puppies? ;A;
[21:28] Squee: I talked to her a little bit
[21:28] auriatetsukai: I tried to.
[21:28] auriatetsukai: Got nothing.
[21:28] Rev: ;A;
[21:28] auriatetsukai: I never know how to help her and I just
[21:28] Squee: :<
[21:28] auriatetsukai: feel like I should
[21:28] auriatetsukai: since
[21:29] Squee: She stopped talking to me like an hour ago though
[21:29] auriatetsukai: since Ryune's gone.
[21:29] auriatetsukai: I'm not sure what to do.
[21:29] Squee: :<
[21:29] Rev: *HUGS.*
[21:29] Squee: :< :< :<
[21:29] Squee: /fills with looove
[21:29] auriatetsukai: I don't know how to help people. I just know how to let people bleed in me.
[21:29] auriatetsukai: Jen won't even do THAT.
[21:30] Holly: has joined the chat
[21:30] Rox: Maybe she just needs to cool down? That could be why she won't respond.
[21:30] Rev: Y-yeah.
[21:30] Natalie: Hello!
[21:30] Rox: o/
[21:30] Holly: .....Hey again. Sorry I left randomly.
[21:30] Sarah: Wb!
[21:30] Allison: *wave*
[21:30] Natalie: No prob.
[21:30] auriatetsukai: But what's gotten her so upset in the first place?
[21:30] Rev: Iiii find that oftentimes when people are feeling hgdfjshd like that, it's best to give them their space.
[21:30] Rox: It happens on occasion.
[21:30] Sarah: You should be. When people leave we become ANGRY
[21:30] Squee: I don't think it was upset?
[21:30] Holly: I got dragged away by a boy. -_-
[21:30] Rev: Jen is the type who needs her space.
[21:31] auriatetsukai: I know.
[21:31] Squee: she said she had no motivation to play in her game or something
[21:31] Rev: 8[
[21:31] auriatetsukai: Oh god.
[21:31] Squee: but it also might have been the anonmeme on her journal?
[21:31] Sarah: Crap...
[21:31] auriatetsukai: But her anonmeme garnered nothing but...well,
[21:31] auriatetsukai: sort of happiness.
[21:31] Squee: idk?
[21:31] auriatetsukai: Some concern, but it was easily dealt with, and it was concern she had heard before.
[21:31] auriatetsukai: From me, even. xD
[21:31] auriatetsukai: I don't know I just
[21:32] auriatetsukai: what happens
[21:32] auriatetsukai: if she leaves?
[21:33] Squee: :<
[21:33] Rox: No reason to worry about that yet, I don't think. There could be a million things going on that we just don't know about.
[21:33] Squee: She won't leave!
[21:33] Rev: She's probably dealing with some crap right now and needs to take a break.
[21:33] Rox: The fact that you tried to talk to her, though, probably means a lot.
[21:33] Rev: If she needs a break, then she has a right to.
[21:33] auriatetsukai: ...no it doesn't, Rox.
[21:33] auriatetsukai: I don't mean much to her.
[21:33] Squee: She probably did that so she wouldn't have to leave.
[21:33] Squee: >[ Don't don't don't say thaaaat
[21:33] auriatetsukai: It's true.
[21:33] auriatetsukai: I'm not...I'm not Ryune.
[21:33] Rev: Ffff Auria. That's not true.
[21:34] Squee: I just don't think she's all that expressive
[21:34] auriatetsukai: Much as I'd like to be, for whatever stupid reason.
[21:34] Rev: You can't be someone you're not.
[21:34] Rev: Just be Auria.
[21:34] auriatetsukai: I tried to be her, though.
[21:34] auriatetsukai: Ryune.
[21:34] auriatetsukai: A lot.
[21:34] auriatetsukai: And after
[21:34] Squee: .___. Not to dis Ryune in any way at all, but... I never had any relationship with her, really
[21:34] Squee: and I do with you
[21:34] auriatetsukai: after reworking myself and being nicer and thinking different and and and
[21:34] auriatetsukai: just
[21:34] Squee: <3
[21:35] auriatetsukai: BEING Ryune,
[21:35] auriatetsukai: the final step was to befriend Jen.
[21:35] Robin: No reason to be. Ryune can't even get her own head on straight. Why would you want to be like that?
[21:35] auriatetsukai: Something Ryune could do, and I couldn't.

I think I just explored a part of myself that I hadn't known was there.

Also, sorry for emoing about Ryune. Again.

NOOOOOOOOO

Sun, 08 Nov 2009 04:17:50 GMT

Today I had to go pick up eccentricbirdie because she was bitching about how "ronery" she is all the time. It's a very long drive from her house to mine simply because there is no short way and no bypassing of lights. So I decided to just hop on the freeway.

En route to the freeway, we ended up behind an SUV that was playing a movie. It was doing previews for Ratatouille and The Aristocats, so we got really excited for the movie that was coming up. But when it came on, we couldn't tell what it was at all. Worse, they were in the left lane and I needed to move over to get on the freeway, but we wanted to know what the hell that movie was.

"I think it might be The Jungle Book," Birdie said.

"Eh? It looked live-action to me," I protested. "Like Mary Poppins, maybe. But it had bold, yellow credit font. Help me remember that."

I have The Jungle Book in my Big Box of Childhood, so I decided that when we got home, I would pop it in and we would find out if Birdie was right. Only problem was none of the VCRs we have are actually hooked up to their respective TVs.

"THIS CORD IS TOO SHORT."

"It's Video In, right?"

"I SEE FACES HOLD ON. STAY ON THAT CHANNEL."

My brother came in. "You know we have a Big Box of Cords in the garage, right?" Without waiting for an answer, the smart-ass went into the garage and came right back out with a very long AV cord, which I plugged in hoping to see results.

Nothing.

"Why the hell is the tape not playing!?" I yelled. Pushing "play" did nothing. The VCR was simply switching on and off of its own accord. I ejected and reinserted the tape. Blank screen. I ejected the tape one more time--

"Hold on, Auria."

"Hm?"

"I know why the tape's not working." My brother walked over, took the tape from my hands, and turned it over. The VCR had shredded it.

That tape's not even mine.

I think Seattle heard my screams.

...

Sat, 07 Nov 2009 05:35:20 GMT

I kind of hate myself.

Only kind of.